hum. i have this poor guy friend. his wife is such a bitch.... i feel so bad for him. SIGH. he is probably the sweetest guy in the world. ;_; he tells me hes fine but ahhh, i really think hes nottttt. wish he would talk to me. maybe he will come around. :c
other than that, happy thanksgiving guys. i didn't stuff myself so i felt like i was going to throw up this year...like i normally do. LOL. just ate so i wasn't hungry anymore. mm didn't do any weird family gathering crap. holidays are pretty lonely.
jay wasted money we dont have on a puppy. well, he payed it off in like payments to the lady. we didnt want it but he just...did it anyways. so whatever shes here now. shes so fucking cuutee :{ her face is black so you cant really see her dark eyes ever. it almost looks like she has none
she looks alot darker than this irl, the flash made her look light..
people are so confusing sometimes...ahh i am so fuckin frustrated. could you make this any worse for me right nowwww seriously. v_v
i think i will go listen to music and take a BATH. and then...........i think ill just do school stuff. yes. i am going to work on school stuff on the WEEKEND. i am awesome.
today was weird. it was bad for the most part, i dont know...lots of not so pretty things went on. i had a bad headache..mm :)
ha haa my mom told me i was a BITCH and she was serious, i cried a little but i am ok. i wasnt trying to be a bitch, and i wasnt trying to make jay mad. he always gets mad at things i say though, so whatever ???
i miss geo, humm. she deleted me from everything, i wonder if she deleted me on msn. i don't have the heart to delete her from there. i never will. my heart breaks everytime i look at her name on my list. i cry everytime i think about her but i dont know why ?? i never thought it would go to this point. its not that i dont like her or anything retarded like that i just felt so betrayed when she never told me anything and was keeping everything hidden from me. i had thought we got through that stage in our friendship. i expected her to tell me everything good and bad and she didnt. she hurt me bad. things have been messed up for too long. i am pretty sure this is far beyond fixing. there is nothing left to say or do. things will never be okay again. this almost makes me want to completely disappear from the internet. who knows, maybe i will.
getting older sucks, i am watching everyone grow up and go their seperate ways and i feel like i am so far behind. everyone is leaving me here. hello?! GUYS?!?!?!?! GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. WAIT FOR ME.
did i tell you guys i cut my hair ?? its real cute, maybe pictures later. i dont know. i havent taken pics in FORevvvvvvvvv, been getting bugged by like everyone for updated ones too. i just am never happy with myself and i hate pictures and ;KLNGAL;NGLAKSGNAS ahhh ahhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. maybe i will just make a video. i dont know...
AGH so what else what else.... i started math tutoring. i have to do it even though i get like a 90 something % in math, because they want me to be completely prepared for tests i have to take because i have to pass them and blahblah whatever. its with this guy Mark. hes really peppy, talks alot, laughs alot (at his own retarded jokes mostly) and hes alright i guess. he told me he owned a car that he took care of more than himself, and spent 10 minutes of our tutoring time telling me about what kind it was and showing me a picture. hahahaa. oh and he told me hes a terrible driver and just last week he backed into a light pole. ROFL, what the hell? owns a nice car and cant drive right! FAIL
sorry nook for thinking you deleted me, i was so upset and looking at my friends thing and you have another LJ that i added and you never added me back and i for some fucking reason thought that was your..normal LJ..... i dont know what i was thinking or doing oh god HAHAHaaa..
oh and guys I LOVE YOU. i try to read everything you post every day and reply when i have something decent to say and i hope you are all doing good good good
and OMFG AT THIS POINT IM SURE YOU GUYS ARE READY TO JUST SHOOT ME I AM SO SORRY but night giiirl glad that diet stuff is working out well. keep me updateeeddd.
just got home from the hospital, had to get blood work done.
i had some fat guy poking my arm with his finger (which is weird because thats what hurt, not the needle LMAO)
my grammie is so cute. i love her. i feel alot better knowing she never got her license until she was married......THERE IS STILL HOPE FOR ME. HELL YEAH.
LMAO stomach hurts so bad from laughing. so my mom bought those dried prunes that are on TV because she was curious what they tasted like. she ate one and said they were so fucking gross...i ate one and liked it. i told her that we should make my brother try one because his face is SOOO funny when he thinks something is gross and hes eating it..LMAOOOoo. so he puts it in his mouth, and omfg.......i died the entire time...it took him like 2 mins to finish chewing it and he was gagging and everything else. LMFAOOOO ohh shit that was fuckin funny...
hahah...... okay that pussy ass bitch never did shit. hes still running his fucking mouth though and i swear if he doesn't shut the fuck up hes getting it again and this time it won't be my fist its going to be a frying pan or some other object.
AHH anyways my butt hurts like i worked out or something uh...
lmao did i tell you guys on top of the car breaking the dryer stopped working and my moms carpet scrubber blew up LMFAO my mom is like a total neat freak and she like used that thing once a week or more she's like going nuts. i just hung clothes outside. SUCKS